Eyes too close

I don’t always get my images right. I have visual and cognitive issues as well as physical difficulty holding pastels and pencils. Sometimes I find I do not have enough control of a pastel as it is too big and wide for me in that particular moment. 

This is a self portrait. I got the eyes too close because I did not take the time to accurately draw the initial outline. I only had limited ability. There was nothing I could do then to change it once coloured in. So every time I look at it it feels wrong and out of balance, but then that is what my life and body are like, completely out of balance.

I was not too well when I started this, but wanted to have a go. It was very interesting. I learned a lot doing this picture. I discovered how important the quality of the pastel is for smudging on top of another colour. I used a cheaper pastel without realising and it looked quite chalky on the side of my face. I tried to take it off but that left it not quite as strongly coloured as I intended. Good learning.