Ravaged

Ravaged by pain and paralysis, I continue to wait for better moments. 

I drew these two pictures the other day on my iPad. I try to communicate the internal experience so that there is some level of understanding of my inner reality and why I can do nothing.

The first picture captures the inner agony, the second tries to convey the experience of my life, a constant rollercoaster of tormented living and complete inability. It feels like continually moving through mountains and ravines of torment, from which I daily try to climb out of the troughs and remain in a stable moment of calm that rarely if ever exists.