Trapped inside


 This is another pastel from my art books. Here I am, trapped inside myself in yet another bout of paralysis.The face is swollen, including the eye, the whole left side distorted by the paralysis. 

You may think this is an exaggeration but it barely touches the surface of the agonising state of inability that renders me repeatedly unable to see properly, speak or move. Riddled with pain, swollen and puffed up I truly feel monstrously altered out of recognition. 

Pastel allows me at least some small outlet of expression, so much needed, way beyond words.

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