3 perspectives

 


This is a sketch with 3 different perspectives of my daily and nightly struggles. It is just an idea. I hoped to work in pastels with it but it will be some time before that might even be possible. In the meantime, I will lose my memory repeatedly before that happens and forget my intention. It is hard holding on to images and hope of actualising them. This is the best I can do for now. 

The constant wavy line from left to right represents my continual paralysing and reparalysing. The circle with a figure in the centre represents me, trapped inside indescribable pain and inability to move or speak. The bigger taller lines are a snapshot of a moment in the continuing ongoing slog of daily living in transient paralysis.

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