Beginning a new portrait.


Having longed to do a pastel portrait for over a year now, struggling with exhaustion, poor coordination, continual periods of debilitating paralysis and what now feels at the moment like an almost permanent paralyzed left arm and extreme weakness, I have at least begun with a rough outline in white. 

I try to get an accurate feel of the subject but the detail needs working on and altering as I go along. 

I have now completely lost the ability to continue and don’t know if or when I might continue with it. Nevertheless I am pleased I have begun,

I realise now that the face is too compact, it needed to be longer to get a more accurate feel. I think this is due to the angle at which I have the photo . Lying flat the perspective would be shorter.

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