My World




 GREG IS MY WORLD

My physical life is incredibly tormented and empty.
This is how I describe it: 
My life is at best a whirlwind of disconnected fragments,
Jangled together in an unpredictable nightmare
That traps me in the centre of a storm
I could not see coming 
and have no idea how to stop.
Or escape from,
Completely beyond my control
I am at the mercy of a pattern I can barely grasp
Or cling on to.”
Yet here too Greg stays and loves me, we build a life together, trying to rise above it or just be in it, in all its chaos.
I drew this picture on the computer. It is incredibly hard work to draw with one finger, a huge effort. I added some words to try and convey some of the beauty that he exudes to me and the world.


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